Sunday, July 25, 2010

6 weeks later

Its been busy in the Horseman house and I just haven't blogged, for that I realize there is much to update about the family. First and foremost, please continue to pray for Adam. He has been diagnosed with Viral Meningitis and is on day 11 of fighting the Virus. Adam is fighting this bug like a champion, but after 11 days, an ER trip, lumbar puncture and having to watch the world go one without him, he needs you, me and most of all our prayers, love and comfort.

Since Adam has been a bit busy fighting Meningitis, Camden and I have been two peas in a pod, trips to the park, pool, lunch, errands and so much more. Camden has recently found a fascination with animals, books about animals and animal sounds. Cows are appropriately called "Moo! Moo!" in the Horseman house.

I have not forgoteen my journey with faith either, I have joined a small group through my work with several co-workers. We meet once a week for an hour, this time helps all of us reconnect, reprioritize and remember our journey with God and how we can bring that home to our families. Last week we discussed our roles in our relationships as the spiritual head (Adam is my spiritual leader) and how we reconnect with our spouse in faith and the way that showing God's love to our spouses actually allows us to love them more and in a better way, without judgement or spite, but with honest, genuine love and appreciation. Your love is always with me and mine with you.

Most of all, please pray for Adam and his health. We have a trip to Florida planned for Wednesday (just 3 days away). To have Adam there would mean so much. I love you boo, you are in all our prayers.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Go Gators!

The Horseman's, cheering on the Gators at the Rugby 7's Collegiate National Championship tourney at Columbus Crew stadium in Columbus, OH.

Our Saturday was a fun-filled day of Rugby 7's, we cheered on our UF Gators as they were one of 12 teams (I think) competing for the title. UF was not exactly on their A game and lost to UT (erggg) and later Indiana. But we didnt care...we bleed orange and blue no matter what! Adam and I both looked at each other more than a few times and just couldnt stop saying "I love you," a lot comes from embracing God's love and learning to live in the moment and for every moment with the one you love more than anything.

Camden had a ton of fun, eating snacks and $1 hot dogs every 10 minutes. She also made her self known when she decided to climb up on one of the benches and proceed to take a spill right on to her head... dont worry daddy is an ATC and double checked for anything more than a hussle mark :)
The weather was perfect for Rugby, humid with occasional rain to keep the ball just slippery enough to make the games just that more exciting. The games were even broadcast on NBC Saturday and Sunday. Rugby is starting to sweep the nation and is even in the 2016 Olympics (the US holds the reigning gold medal from the 1924 games). After 5 hours of Rugby we made a pit stop at California Pizza Kitchen - so yummy - and made our way back home.
With this I thank you for your constant prayers, love and support for our family and our love, I have never been so capable of love and living as I am now, with Adam and our heavenly father leading us with hands held and hearts as one.


Love you boo! Ruck, Scrum, Maul!

Horizon League Tournament

Camden and I joined Adam for the WSU baseball Horizon League Tournament over Memorial Day Weekend. We had a blast bonding with the team and living it up in our 10x10 hotel room ;)

Here is Camden getting ready to go swimming after taking a morning nap..note the Albert Einstein hair (its a post-nap norm).
During some down time between games, Adam had to finish up writing the final exam for his class and Camden was an excellent helper!

Living it up and catching some rays at the hotel pool before cheering on the Raiders at the game.

A tiring day of swimming and flirting with her many boyfriends on the baseball team

Sporting her Raider green! Camden was the life of the party at the games. Go Daddy Go!

Gary, Indiana is the place and the Horizon League Baseball Tourney was the name of the game. Memorial day weekend Camden and I joined Adam and the WSU baseball team in Gary, IN for the HL tournament. WSU did clench the HL for the regular season and had hopes of also winning the tournament. Unfortunately, WSU fell to UWMilwaukee in the championship game on Sunday. Despite the loss we had an awesome time and made work into play. With the tempeerature reaching 90 all weekend, we spent our mornings at the hotel pool and our evenings at the ball park. Most coaches and even players made the trip a family affair with parents, spouses and kids surpassing the number of actual spectators.
I was able to grab a lot of shots of Adam, The Raider ATC, in action, I personally love the blue gloves hanging out of his back pocket... hottie!

Team introductions at the begining of the 3rd game of the weekend. I have a ton of pictures, but blogger is a bit slow with uploading and I am not the most patient so...

We had a great time and even though the Raiders didnt take home 1st, Adam and I grew closer with each other and the many memebers of the team including the players, coaches, and their families.

GO Raiders!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

I Cherish You

Adam I know some of my posts can be long and seem to tell about 5 stories at once, but this is for you and you only.

I absolutely cherish you and appreciate the person, husband and father that you are. You are my best friend. I appreciate everything that you are. I cant even explain how amazing you make me feel everytime you look at me a certain way or simply say "I love you boo." You are a gift, a gift to everyone that knows you. God has placed you in my life, as a part of me for a reason - to make me the best person I can be.

You give me hope, drive and confidence to love with an open heart and mind and chase our dreams together. You motivate me to conquer new heights. You have taught me how to communicate and become a better wife and friend. Adam thank you for loving me unconditionally with God's love in your heart, and the freedom in your soul to unconditionally embrace us as one.

PS: I love the CD's! I have never looked forward to a 4 hr drive with an 18 mos old so much ;) (ok the drive to Ohio from FL - waited like 27 days for that... haha)

Thank you booski!
I truly cherish and love you, really really

A Fresh Expolosion of Faith

Beth Moore's "A Taste of Believing in God" is a short book, I like to call it a handbook, that is a breath of fresh air when it comes to faith and belief in God. Beth Moore does an awesome job of answering the who, what, where, when and why of believing in God. As someone who feels like I have been on a rollercoaster of belief and question since I can remember, this book is an amazing and refreshing breath of faith and how God's love can set your mind and heart free. Freedom is the greatest gift and feeling I could wish for anyone. What I have learned recently is priceless, I have finally attained the tools to experience Freedom in life. I am head over heels in love with my husband and everything that makes him tick, every quierk, differnece, similarity all of it.

With the power of God's love I now have the ability to open My heart and mind and soul to allow myself to love him in the many ways he deserves to be loved and appreciated. In a certain frame of mind I am sorry it took me this long to "figure it out" or let go of my wall or doubt (not in my spouse, in me and my belief of faith). I wanted to believe, but I didnt know how. With the love of my husband, family, close friends and family and most off the love for God's power and the amazing love he has shown me, to forgive and forget - learning lessons from the past, but not holding on to it- I am Alive and in Love with my boo, God is Alive and Active with in me, giving me the power and Freedom to Love with all my heart and soul. For this awakening and I thank you Adam, your faith and love has never left me, so many days I was only driven by hope, the hope of you and I. I know I am rambling, but frankly I cant stop, the love I feel for you Adam is unlike any love I have ever experienced, it is God's love. Thank you for taking my hand, walking with me and guiding me to faith and unconditional love. God's love is unconditional and that is the love between a husband and wife - it must be unconditional for their connection to grow and strengthen and most of all to allow the love of faith to guide their relationship and journey to become "one."

Back to Beth Moore :)
God's Word is Alive and Active in Me:
Applying God's word is not just taking our bibles to church on Sundays or the cross above the doorway. Ephesians 6:17 states that God's Word is our Sword of the Spirit, but we have to learn how to use it if we want to be a powerful force for the kingdom and against the darkness. God has given us the tools to protect our belief, love, familiy and self from The Enemy. We must never let our guard (faith) down, The Enemy is out there, I am not giving him any reason to even take a second look at our life. God has given us the tools, through hard lessons yes, but we have the ultimate weapon: Freedom, Faith, God, and Unconditional Love - not to mention Each Other. Now its time to learn how to use it to make our life the best it can be, better than we have ever imagined! :)

God not only told us that His Word is alive, effective and powerful on its own - He insisted that it is alive, effective, and powerful in us when we recieve it. - Pause and take the time to let this sink in, appreciate this concept.

Faith has supernatural effects for those who open their hearts and minds to its teachings.

When we recieve God's word, it invades every part of who we are (Hebrew 4:12).

As a way to reaffirm these lesson each day I try to ask myself the following questions daily and pray for the opportunity to further emmerse myself in the love of God and the lessons of true faith.

"Do I really believe these words? And, if I do, how does it show? How might I be able to act on the truth of these words today? How do these words apply to my present challenges and petitions today?"

(adopted from Beth Moore's writings)

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Love Brings Completeness

We often see differneces in people as a hurdle to overcome or not necessarily a positive. Through out my readings and lessons of the Love Dare - a year of devotions for couples- I have gained new perspective on our differences and how they are meant to compliment and complete the other.

From the Love Dare - read with an open mind and appreciation for your spouse, quierks and all.

God intentionally created needs in both of you that the other would be exclusively designed to help meet. The Enemy desires to use your distinctiveness to drive you apart - to operate independently - as though what your spouse brings to you is unnecessary. But marriage has made you "one flesh" Now neither of you should live without the other. Though distinct in personality and ability, you have been designed to 'experience oneness in your diverstiy.' You are no longer just you. You are so intimately combined with your mate that together you are to live as one complete person.

This is an Ah Ha moment for me because in nearly all of my relationships with people I used to think "ok, how can I overcome how we are different" as opposed to now I say to myself "how can we value each others differnces and become stronger and closer because of them." This lesson is true not only in the relationship with your spouse, but also in life. I used to fear my differences from Adam, like it would drive me apart and I needed to change who I was to be more like Adam so he would "love me more." These feelings were never brought on or caused by anything Adam said or did, this was purely my insecurities speaking for me. I also felt this way because I was not confident in my relationship with God and therefore able to Love my spouse in the way God loves us and I love God. With God's love I am able to experience freedom in thought and embrace our differences rather than wish mine away. Our differences are what make us unique individuals. We are like puzzle pieces, and Adam is my perfect fit.

"Heavenly Father, bond our hearts together in marriage. Teach us what it means to live as one, Amen."

"We love because he first loved us" John 4:19