Loving God with all my heart (Matthew 22:37) opens my heart and my mind to love myself and Adam the way that I love God. I used to wish I knew how to love Adam and myself in this way. When I let myself truly love God and opened my heart to his power and strength something truly unexplainably beautiful happened. Words can not describe the feeling, but I feel fulfilled and with purpose; a purpose to serve, honor, love, and appreciate not just God but Adam, my spouse. Keeping God first blesses our marriage more than any other practice. This purpose is a guided by the teachings of faith and gives me the outlet to truly express how I feel about our heavenly Father, my amazing husband and our families. My life has new meaning and our future so much promise. Bumps will come and we will rise, with faith in our hearts, and overcome stronger and more in love than ever before.
I look forward each day to my time with faith, learning more and more about my new found freedom and mindset. My (our) life has been so blessed with so much support and Belief from so many people. Some will take time and I pray that they too can have closure, however I can only control my life, actions, and emotions. I am the leader of one and the follower of Him, a guided walk, hand in hand with the greatest strength I could ever imagined. The freedom to learn from the past, forgive and walk forward with love and promise is a feeling I wish for everyone. This has given Adam and I foundation for a marriage that neither of us even knew was possible. God works in mysterious ways; but with purpose.
Everything in life takes on new value and meaning when it becomes an instrument for you to live out your love and belief in faith and God. As explained in the teachings of John 4 and John 5 and reflected in my expericences; as we open our hearts to God's love, the love we have for our spouse overflows and fulfulls us in ways we otherwise could not imagine. This allows us to love our spouse as He loves them and us. Living with faith is a lifelong adventure filled with new experiences and constant learning, lessons are not always easy or understood, but life led by faith is life with purpose, love, strength and honor for God and the one closest in our lives.
This post includes some of the teachings I have learned recently during my time of reflection and study with faith. The Love Dare collection, Beth Moore, close friends and family and the Bible have all been sources of inspiration, learning, strength and love for Adam and I both as we walk together, each day one step further on the path of life together, honoring God and each other.
I appreciate your heart Adam, I once took this for granted, knowing it or not, now I truly love and appreciate your heart. You are an amazing man and I am very blessed to be your wife and partner in our journey.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Fun at the Park
Camden and I had a Mommy / Daughter play date at Shoup Park this afternoon, thats the park with the really really big slide -- so cool!
We did go down the really really big slide 2 times, no pics b/c I was hanging on for dear life :)
Camden loves the park! She is able to go down most of the small to medium slides by herself. Her favorite slides are the owns that spiral.
Fun Pics (PS Blogger is taking forever to upload, so pics are at a minimum for now).
Ready, Set, WHEEEE!
Oh I Just Love Surprises!
Surprise #1 Camden has her very own folding chair!! ... I hope Adam does too!
Over the past 4 days I have committed myself to being a green-thumbed yard working diva. I must say, I think I came pretty close ;).
As a psuedo surprise for Adam (I told I was going to weed and such)... I decided to weed, weedwhack, trim bushes, sweep, mulch, clean, dig, fill, spread and just about every other landscaping verb.
The Battle Plan
First, I attacked the front beds and the entryway. Secondly, I went after the two beds which flank our fire pit (thank you Adam and the Jasons!) in the backyard. It is important to know the beds had become part of the yard again. Hehe.
Lastly, I did all the manicure, sweep, busy work stuff.
enjoy the pics!!
Disclaimer- all work done on a Dave Ramsey approved budget.
Damn He's Good
I have wanted to start the Love Dare, both book and year of devotions, for several months. I finally, out of the blue, submerrsed myself in the Love Dare two days ago. The lessons are simplistic, but so true, so true. The Love Dare is my constant check, my constant reality check. Successful marriage is work, but a work of love and faith, a work that I long to do. I have learned so much in just the first few days. I have dropped my guards and opened my heart and mind to a fullfilled and honest realtionship with God and faith. To date, this is the most powerful, realizing, kick in the ass, and best thing that has ever happened to me. Adam I owe my relationship with God to you and your never ending belief.
The dare I went over yesterday was Love Is Patient -(get the title). Love is Life's Motivator is the over arching theme, but what kicked me was Love is patient. As many know I am not the most patient person, as a sign of growth, I can admit it and I am aware of it, I am also working to improve my patience, this will take time - bear with me :)
The most impactful lesson follows: try it, you will see.
Read Corinthians 13, then focus on versus 4-7:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres. "
Now replace your name or I everytime you read the word Love or It:
"I am patient, I am kind. I do not envy, I do not boast, I am not proud. I am not rude, I am not self seeking, I am not easly angered, I keep no record of wrongs. I do not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. I will always protect, trust, hope and perservere. "
The rest is self explanatory and Yes, I know, He's good.
Thank you Love Dare.
The dare I went over yesterday was Love Is Patient -(get the title). Love is Life's Motivator is the over arching theme, but what kicked me was Love is patient. As many know I am not the most patient person, as a sign of growth, I can admit it and I am aware of it, I am also working to improve my patience, this will take time - bear with me :)
The most impactful lesson follows: try it, you will see.
Read Corinthians 13, then focus on versus 4-7:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres. "
Now replace your name or I everytime you read the word Love or It:
"I am patient, I am kind. I do not envy, I do not boast, I am not proud. I am not rude, I am not self seeking, I am not easly angered, I keep no record of wrongs. I do not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. I will always protect, trust, hope and perservere. "
The rest is self explanatory and Yes, I know, He's good.
Thank you Love Dare.
Two Steps Back, Three Steps Forward
This post is about awareness, self awareness. The last 48 hours have been trying but with my devotion to faith and the love I have for myself, my family, my God and my husband I know that this is "a bump." The last days are a testiment to the fact the Enemy is always waiting, lurking and hoping for any weakness to attack. The Enemy stikes fast and hard and the worst thing about is the victim is paralyzed by his venom, has lost grips with reality and believes only what the Enemy allows him to hear. It is a trap and it is hell, believe me I have been deep in the middle of it, now on both ends.
Moving forward: the does victim is not lost, there is one Hope, God and his faith and the people that love him (whether he thinks so or not) . The good becomes evil and the evil becomes good, this is paralyzing and causes the victim to act out of chracter and rationalize uncharacteristic thoughts and actions. It is not an excuse for ungodly actions, it is why ungodly actions happen. With this said, I am a stronger person and much more self aware because of my experiences as the victim and now as watching someone I love so much become trapped. With the love of God, The Enemy's latest victim was able to see God's truth, take his hand and begin to fight. Fight for his own mind, body and soul. Fight for his life.
We are winning the fight, I know we are. God works in mysterious ways and always with a purpose, God has given me a golden ticket so that I can finally show myself and others that I am committed and strong. God has also given me an infinite amount of artillery against the Enemy. This artillery is simple, I now know how the Enemy plays his game, I can see it, my vision is now clear, the blinders are off and I now have the tools to live a life of purpose, love, patience and Strength- God's strength. I have yet but a drop of HIS strength within me, but it is unlike any experience, I am a strong person and wife, I will honor my husband and love him
unconditionally, I am fighting for both of us while he is healing from the Enemy's strike. I devout my life to this fight, the fight for our marriage and our family. I will fight with the strength of 100 men and I will never surrender my fight against the Enemy's attack, no matter the playing field, the Enemy will not win, I am strong with the Lord and have the tools to finally see the holes of weakness/vulnerability and to repair those and make our wall strong at every point, making our marriage undesirable to the Enemy's plans.
I pledge my life to our marriage, our relationship and our families. I have new understanding of love, honor, respect, appreciation AND patience. At this point we must surround ourselves with postive influences that share in our fight, with those that pray for our love and our happiness as "one" I no longer see us a husband and a wife, we are one, as the Lord says, we become ONE. This is a celebration, knowing we are two people and only two people in this fight, I know we will become alive in our marriage. Our marriage has longed for the foundation that we have finally begun to build, every thing happens for a purpose - this is God's purpose- he has given us this test with the Enemy, a lesson to be learned, that everyday we must be aware, we must show love, we must show strength and we must show devotion to each other and the Lord. I believe God has given us this test or bump to show us that our marriage will reach a new level and be stronger than we ever could have imagined. We will be one, alive and aware and with God's strength and love as never before.
I am praying for us; with you. I am fighting with the strength of God and I will never give up.
Moving forward: the does victim is not lost, there is one Hope, God and his faith and the people that love him (whether he thinks so or not) . The good becomes evil and the evil becomes good, this is paralyzing and causes the victim to act out of chracter and rationalize uncharacteristic thoughts and actions. It is not an excuse for ungodly actions, it is why ungodly actions happen. With this said, I am a stronger person and much more self aware because of my experiences as the victim and now as watching someone I love so much become trapped. With the love of God, The Enemy's latest victim was able to see God's truth, take his hand and begin to fight. Fight for his own mind, body and soul. Fight for his life.
We are winning the fight, I know we are. God works in mysterious ways and always with a purpose, God has given me a golden ticket so that I can finally show myself and others that I am committed and strong. God has also given me an infinite amount of artillery against the Enemy. This artillery is simple, I now know how the Enemy plays his game, I can see it, my vision is now clear, the blinders are off and I now have the tools to live a life of purpose, love, patience and Strength- God's strength. I have yet but a drop of HIS strength within me, but it is unlike any experience, I am a strong person and wife, I will honor my husband and love him
unconditionally, I am fighting for both of us while he is healing from the Enemy's strike. I devout my life to this fight, the fight for our marriage and our family. I will fight with the strength of 100 men and I will never surrender my fight against the Enemy's attack, no matter the playing field, the Enemy will not win, I am strong with the Lord and have the tools to finally see the holes of weakness/vulnerability and to repair those and make our wall strong at every point, making our marriage undesirable to the Enemy's plans.
I pledge my life to our marriage, our relationship and our families. I have new understanding of love, honor, respect, appreciation AND patience. At this point we must surround ourselves with postive influences that share in our fight, with those that pray for our love and our happiness as "one" I no longer see us a husband and a wife, we are one, as the Lord says, we become ONE. This is a celebration, knowing we are two people and only two people in this fight, I know we will become alive in our marriage. Our marriage has longed for the foundation that we have finally begun to build, every thing happens for a purpose - this is God's purpose- he has given us this test with the Enemy, a lesson to be learned, that everyday we must be aware, we must show love, we must show strength and we must show devotion to each other and the Lord. I believe God has given us this test or bump to show us that our marriage will reach a new level and be stronger than we ever could have imagined. We will be one, alive and aware and with God's strength and love as never before.
I am praying for us; with you. I am fighting with the strength of God and I will never give up.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Cami "G"
Ms. Camden Horseman
Sporting her "style" at the WSU baseball game!!
Surprise gift for the best picture caption!! Get creative!
Sporting her "style" at the WSU baseball game!!
Surprise gift for the best picture caption!! Get creative!6 Principles of Reality Living
1. I am responsible for my own attitude
2. My attitude affects my actions
3. I can not change others, but I can influence others
4. My emotions do not control my actions
5. Admitting my imperfections does not mean I am a failure
6. Love is the most powerful weapon for good in the world
I took me a while to truly understand and appreciate these life-isms...
A little food for thought can go a long way :)
2. My attitude affects my actions
3. I can not change others, but I can influence others
4. My emotions do not control my actions
5. Admitting my imperfections does not mean I am a failure
6. Love is the most powerful weapon for good in the world
I took me a while to truly understand and appreciate these life-isms...
A little food for thought can go a long way :)
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