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Friday, August 27, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
6 weeks later
Its been busy in the Horseman house and I just haven't blogged, for that I realize there is much to update about the family. First and foremost, please continue to pray for Adam. He has been diagnosed with Viral Meningitis and is on day 11 of fighting the Virus. Adam is fighting this bug like a champion, but after 11 days, an ER trip, lumbar puncture and having to watch the world go one without him, he needs you, me and most of all our prayers, love and comfort.
Since Adam has been a bit busy fighting Meningitis, Camden and I have been two peas in a pod, trips to the park, pool, lunch, errands and so much more. Camden has recently found a fascination with animals, books about animals and animal sounds. Cows are appropriately called "Moo! Moo!" in the Horseman house.
I have not forgoteen my journey with faith either, I have joined a small group through my work with several co-workers. We meet once a week for an hour, this time helps all of us reconnect, reprioritize and remember our journey with God and how we can bring that home to our families. Last week we discussed our roles in our relationships as the spiritual head (Adam is my spiritual leader) and how we reconnect with our spouse in faith and the way that showing God's love to our spouses actually allows us to love them more and in a better way, without judgement or spite, but with honest, genuine love and appreciation. Your love is always with me and mine with you.
Most of all, please pray for Adam and his health. We have a trip to Florida planned for Wednesday (just 3 days away). To have Adam there would mean so much. I love you boo, you are in all our prayers.
Since Adam has been a bit busy fighting Meningitis, Camden and I have been two peas in a pod, trips to the park, pool, lunch, errands and so much more. Camden has recently found a fascination with animals, books about animals and animal sounds. Cows are appropriately called "Moo! Moo!" in the Horseman house.
I have not forgoteen my journey with faith either, I have joined a small group through my work with several co-workers. We meet once a week for an hour, this time helps all of us reconnect, reprioritize and remember our journey with God and how we can bring that home to our families. Last week we discussed our roles in our relationships as the spiritual head (Adam is my spiritual leader) and how we reconnect with our spouse in faith and the way that showing God's love to our spouses actually allows us to love them more and in a better way, without judgement or spite, but with honest, genuine love and appreciation. Your love is always with me and mine with you.
Most of all, please pray for Adam and his health. We have a trip to Florida planned for Wednesday (just 3 days away). To have Adam there would mean so much. I love you boo, you are in all our prayers.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Go Gators!
The Horseman's, cheering on the Gators at the Rugby 7's Collegiate National Championship tourney at Columbus Crew stadium in Columbus, OH.
Our Saturday was a fun-filled day of Rugby 7's, we cheered on our UF Gators as they were one of 12 teams (I think) competing for the title. UF was not exactly on their A game and lost to UT (erggg) and later Indiana. But we didnt care...we bleed orange and blue no matter what! Adam and I both looked at each other more than a few times and just couldnt stop saying "I love you," a lot comes from embracing God's love and learning to live in the moment and for every moment with the one you love more than anything.
Camden had a ton of fun, eating snacks and $1 hot dogs every 10 minutes. She also made her self known when she decided to climb up on one of the benches and proceed to take a spill right on to her head... dont worry daddy is an ATC and double checked for anything more than a hussle mark :)
The weather was perfect for Rugby, humid with occasional rain to keep the ball just slippery enough to make the games just that more exciting. The games were even broadcast on NBC Saturday and Sunday. Rugby is starting to sweep the nation and is even in the 2016 Olympics (the US holds the reigning gold medal from the 1924 games). After 5 hours of Rugby we made a pit stop at California Pizza Kitchen - so yummy - and made our way back home.
With this I thank you for your constant prayers, love and support for our family and our love, I have never been so capable of love and living as I am now, with Adam and our heavenly father leading us with hands held and hearts as one.
Love you boo! Ruck, Scrum, Maul!
Our Saturday was a fun-filled day of Rugby 7's, we cheered on our UF Gators as they were one of 12 teams (I think) competing for the title. UF was not exactly on their A game and lost to UT (erggg) and later Indiana. But we didnt care...we bleed orange and blue no matter what! Adam and I both looked at each other more than a few times and just couldnt stop saying "I love you," a lot comes from embracing God's love and learning to live in the moment and for every moment with the one you love more than anything.Camden had a ton of fun, eating snacks and $1 hot dogs every 10 minutes. She also made her self known when she decided to climb up on one of the benches and proceed to take a spill right on to her head... dont worry daddy is an ATC and double checked for anything more than a hussle mark :)
The weather was perfect for Rugby, humid with occasional rain to keep the ball just slippery enough to make the games just that more exciting. The games were even broadcast on NBC Saturday and Sunday. Rugby is starting to sweep the nation and is even in the 2016 Olympics (the US holds the reigning gold medal from the 1924 games). After 5 hours of Rugby we made a pit stop at California Pizza Kitchen - so yummy - and made our way back home.
With this I thank you for your constant prayers, love and support for our family and our love, I have never been so capable of love and living as I am now, with Adam and our heavenly father leading us with hands held and hearts as one.
Love you boo! Ruck, Scrum, Maul!
Horizon League Tournament
Camden and I joined Adam for the WSU baseball Horizon League Tournament over Memorial Day Weekend. We had a blast bonding with the team and living it up in our 10x10 hotel room ;)
During some down time between games, Adam had to finish up writing the final exam for his class and Camden was an excellent helper!
Living it up and catching some rays at the hotel pool before cheering on the Raiders at the game.
A tiring day of swimming and flirting with her many boyfriends on the baseball team
Sporting her Raider green! Camden was the life of the party at the games. Go Daddy Go!
Gary, Indiana is the place and the Horizon League Baseball Tourney was the name of the game. Memorial day weekend Camden and I joined Adam and the WSU baseball team in Gary, IN for the HL tournament. WSU did clench the HL for the regular season and had hopes of also winning the tournament. Unfortunately, WSU fell to UWMilwaukee in the championship game on Sunday. Despite the loss we had an awesome time and made work into play. With the tempeerature reaching 90 all weekend, we spent our mornings at the hotel pool and our evenings at the ball park. Most coaches and even players made the trip a family affair with parents, spouses and kids surpassing the number of actual spectators. 
Here is Camden getting ready to go swimming after taking a morning nap..note the Albert Einstein hair (its a post-nap norm).
During some down time between games, Adam had to finish up writing the final exam for his class and Camden was an excellent helper!
Living it up and catching some rays at the hotel pool before cheering on the Raiders at the game.
A tiring day of swimming and flirting with her many boyfriends on the baseball team
Sporting her Raider green! Camden was the life of the party at the games. Go Daddy Go!
Gary, Indiana is the place and the Horizon League Baseball Tourney was the name of the game. Memorial day weekend Camden and I joined Adam and the WSU baseball team in Gary, IN for the HL tournament. WSU did clench the HL for the regular season and had hopes of also winning the tournament. Unfortunately, WSU fell to UWMilwaukee in the championship game on Sunday. Despite the loss we had an awesome time and made work into play. With the tempeerature reaching 90 all weekend, we spent our mornings at the hotel pool and our evenings at the ball park. Most coaches and even players made the trip a family affair with parents, spouses and kids surpassing the number of actual spectators. I was able to grab a lot of shots of Adam, The Raider ATC, in action, I personally love the blue gloves hanging out of his back pocket... hottie!
Team introductions at the begining of the 3rd game of the weekend. I have a ton of pictures, but blogger is a bit slow with uploading and I am not the most patient so...
We had a great time and even though the Raiders didnt take home 1st, Adam and I grew closer with each other and the many memebers of the team including the players, coaches, and their families.
GO Raiders!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
I Cherish You
Adam I know some of my posts can be long and seem to tell about 5 stories at once, but this is for you and you only.
I absolutely cherish you and appreciate the person, husband and father that you are. You are my best friend. I appreciate everything that you are. I cant even explain how amazing you make me feel everytime you look at me a certain way or simply say "I love you boo." You are a gift, a gift to everyone that knows you. God has placed you in my life, as a part of me for a reason - to make me the best person I can be.
You give me hope, drive and confidence to love with an open heart and mind and chase our dreams together. You motivate me to conquer new heights. You have taught me how to communicate and become a better wife and friend. Adam thank you for loving me unconditionally with God's love in your heart, and the freedom in your soul to unconditionally embrace us as one.
PS: I love the CD's! I have never looked forward to a 4 hr drive with an 18 mos old so much ;) (ok the drive to Ohio from FL - waited like 27 days for that... haha)
Thank you booski!
I truly cherish and love you, really really
I absolutely cherish you and appreciate the person, husband and father that you are. You are my best friend. I appreciate everything that you are. I cant even explain how amazing you make me feel everytime you look at me a certain way or simply say "I love you boo." You are a gift, a gift to everyone that knows you. God has placed you in my life, as a part of me for a reason - to make me the best person I can be.
You give me hope, drive and confidence to love with an open heart and mind and chase our dreams together. You motivate me to conquer new heights. You have taught me how to communicate and become a better wife and friend. Adam thank you for loving me unconditionally with God's love in your heart, and the freedom in your soul to unconditionally embrace us as one.
PS: I love the CD's! I have never looked forward to a 4 hr drive with an 18 mos old so much ;) (ok the drive to Ohio from FL - waited like 27 days for that... haha)
Thank you booski!
I truly cherish and love you, really really
A Fresh Expolosion of Faith
Beth Moore's "A Taste of Believing in God" is a short book, I like to call it a handbook, that is a breath of fresh air when it comes to faith and belief in God. Beth Moore does an awesome job of answering the who, what, where, when and why of believing in God. As someone who feels like I have been on a rollercoaster of belief and question since I can remember, this book is an amazing and refreshing breath of faith and how God's love can set your mind and heart free. Freedom is the greatest gift and feeling I could wish for anyone. What I have learned recently is priceless, I have finally attained the tools to experience Freedom in life. I am head over heels in love with my husband and everything that makes him tick, every quierk, differnece, similarity all of it.
With the power of God's love I now have the ability to open My heart and mind and soul to allow myself to love him in the many ways he deserves to be loved and appreciated. In a certain frame of mind I am sorry it took me this long to "figure it out" or let go of my wall or doubt (not in my spouse, in me and my belief of faith). I wanted to believe, but I didnt know how. With the love of my husband, family, close friends and family and most off the love for God's power and the amazing love he has shown me, to forgive and forget - learning lessons from the past, but not holding on to it- I am Alive and in Love with my boo, God is Alive and Active with in me, giving me the power and Freedom to Love with all my heart and soul. For this awakening and I thank you Adam, your faith and love has never left me, so many days I was only driven by hope, the hope of you and I. I know I am rambling, but frankly I cant stop, the love I feel for you Adam is unlike any love I have ever experienced, it is God's love. Thank you for taking my hand, walking with me and guiding me to faith and unconditional love. God's love is unconditional and that is the love between a husband and wife - it must be unconditional for their connection to grow and strengthen and most of all to allow the love of faith to guide their relationship and journey to become "one."
Back to Beth Moore :)
God's Word is Alive and Active in Me:
Applying God's word is not just taking our bibles to church on Sundays or the cross above the doorway. Ephesians 6:17 states that God's Word is our Sword of the Spirit, but we have to learn how to use it if we want to be a powerful force for the kingdom and against the darkness. God has given us the tools to protect our belief, love, familiy and self from The Enemy. We must never let our guard (faith) down, The Enemy is out there, I am not giving him any reason to even take a second look at our life. God has given us the tools, through hard lessons yes, but we have the ultimate weapon: Freedom, Faith, God, and Unconditional Love - not to mention Each Other. Now its time to learn how to use it to make our life the best it can be, better than we have ever imagined! :)
God not only told us that His Word is alive, effective and powerful on its own - He insisted that it is alive, effective, and powerful in us when we recieve it. - Pause and take the time to let this sink in, appreciate this concept.
Faith has supernatural effects for those who open their hearts and minds to its teachings.
When we recieve God's word, it invades every part of who we are (Hebrew 4:12).
As a way to reaffirm these lesson each day I try to ask myself the following questions daily and pray for the opportunity to further emmerse myself in the love of God and the lessons of true faith.
"Do I really believe these words? And, if I do, how does it show? How might I be able to act on the truth of these words today? How do these words apply to my present challenges and petitions today?"
(adopted from Beth Moore's writings)
With the power of God's love I now have the ability to open My heart and mind and soul to allow myself to love him in the many ways he deserves to be loved and appreciated. In a certain frame of mind I am sorry it took me this long to "figure it out" or let go of my wall or doubt (not in my spouse, in me and my belief of faith). I wanted to believe, but I didnt know how. With the love of my husband, family, close friends and family and most off the love for God's power and the amazing love he has shown me, to forgive and forget - learning lessons from the past, but not holding on to it- I am Alive and in Love with my boo, God is Alive and Active with in me, giving me the power and Freedom to Love with all my heart and soul. For this awakening and I thank you Adam, your faith and love has never left me, so many days I was only driven by hope, the hope of you and I. I know I am rambling, but frankly I cant stop, the love I feel for you Adam is unlike any love I have ever experienced, it is God's love. Thank you for taking my hand, walking with me and guiding me to faith and unconditional love. God's love is unconditional and that is the love between a husband and wife - it must be unconditional for their connection to grow and strengthen and most of all to allow the love of faith to guide their relationship and journey to become "one."
Back to Beth Moore :)
God's Word is Alive and Active in Me:
Applying God's word is not just taking our bibles to church on Sundays or the cross above the doorway. Ephesians 6:17 states that God's Word is our Sword of the Spirit, but we have to learn how to use it if we want to be a powerful force for the kingdom and against the darkness. God has given us the tools to protect our belief, love, familiy and self from The Enemy. We must never let our guard (faith) down, The Enemy is out there, I am not giving him any reason to even take a second look at our life. God has given us the tools, through hard lessons yes, but we have the ultimate weapon: Freedom, Faith, God, and Unconditional Love - not to mention Each Other. Now its time to learn how to use it to make our life the best it can be, better than we have ever imagined! :)
God not only told us that His Word is alive, effective and powerful on its own - He insisted that it is alive, effective, and powerful in us when we recieve it. - Pause and take the time to let this sink in, appreciate this concept.
Faith has supernatural effects for those who open their hearts and minds to its teachings.
When we recieve God's word, it invades every part of who we are (Hebrew 4:12).
As a way to reaffirm these lesson each day I try to ask myself the following questions daily and pray for the opportunity to further emmerse myself in the love of God and the lessons of true faith.
"Do I really believe these words? And, if I do, how does it show? How might I be able to act on the truth of these words today? How do these words apply to my present challenges and petitions today?"
(adopted from Beth Moore's writings)
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Love Brings Completeness
We often see differneces in people as a hurdle to overcome or not necessarily a positive. Through out my readings and lessons of the Love Dare - a year of devotions for couples- I have gained new perspective on our differences and how they are meant to compliment and complete the other.
From the Love Dare - read with an open mind and appreciation for your spouse, quierks and all.
God intentionally created needs in both of you that the other would be exclusively designed to help meet. The Enemy desires to use your distinctiveness to drive you apart - to operate independently - as though what your spouse brings to you is unnecessary. But marriage has made you "one flesh" Now neither of you should live without the other. Though distinct in personality and ability, you have been designed to 'experience oneness in your diverstiy.' You are no longer just you. You are so intimately combined with your mate that together you are to live as one complete person.
This is an Ah Ha moment for me because in nearly all of my relationships with people I used to think "ok, how can I overcome how we are different" as opposed to now I say to myself "how can we value each others differnces and become stronger and closer because of them." This lesson is true not only in the relationship with your spouse, but also in life. I used to fear my differences from Adam, like it would drive me apart and I needed to change who I was to be more like Adam so he would "love me more." These feelings were never brought on or caused by anything Adam said or did, this was purely my insecurities speaking for me. I also felt this way because I was not confident in my relationship with God and therefore able to Love my spouse in the way God loves us and I love God. With God's love I am able to experience freedom in thought and embrace our differences rather than wish mine away. Our differences are what make us unique individuals. We are like puzzle pieces, and Adam is my perfect fit.
"Heavenly Father, bond our hearts together in marriage. Teach us what it means to live as one, Amen."
"We love because he first loved us" John 4:19
From the Love Dare - read with an open mind and appreciation for your spouse, quierks and all.
God intentionally created needs in both of you that the other would be exclusively designed to help meet. The Enemy desires to use your distinctiveness to drive you apart - to operate independently - as though what your spouse brings to you is unnecessary. But marriage has made you "one flesh" Now neither of you should live without the other. Though distinct in personality and ability, you have been designed to 'experience oneness in your diverstiy.' You are no longer just you. You are so intimately combined with your mate that together you are to live as one complete person.
This is an Ah Ha moment for me because in nearly all of my relationships with people I used to think "ok, how can I overcome how we are different" as opposed to now I say to myself "how can we value each others differnces and become stronger and closer because of them." This lesson is true not only in the relationship with your spouse, but also in life. I used to fear my differences from Adam, like it would drive me apart and I needed to change who I was to be more like Adam so he would "love me more." These feelings were never brought on or caused by anything Adam said or did, this was purely my insecurities speaking for me. I also felt this way because I was not confident in my relationship with God and therefore able to Love my spouse in the way God loves us and I love God. With God's love I am able to experience freedom in thought and embrace our differences rather than wish mine away. Our differences are what make us unique individuals. We are like puzzle pieces, and Adam is my perfect fit.
"Heavenly Father, bond our hearts together in marriage. Teach us what it means to live as one, Amen."
"We love because he first loved us" John 4:19
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Learning Lessons
Loving God with all my heart (Matthew 22:37) opens my heart and my mind to love myself and Adam the way that I love God. I used to wish I knew how to love Adam and myself in this way. When I let myself truly love God and opened my heart to his power and strength something truly unexplainably beautiful happened. Words can not describe the feeling, but I feel fulfilled and with purpose; a purpose to serve, honor, love, and appreciate not just God but Adam, my spouse. Keeping God first blesses our marriage more than any other practice. This purpose is a guided by the teachings of faith and gives me the outlet to truly express how I feel about our heavenly Father, my amazing husband and our families. My life has new meaning and our future so much promise. Bumps will come and we will rise, with faith in our hearts, and overcome stronger and more in love than ever before.
I look forward each day to my time with faith, learning more and more about my new found freedom and mindset. My (our) life has been so blessed with so much support and Belief from so many people. Some will take time and I pray that they too can have closure, however I can only control my life, actions, and emotions. I am the leader of one and the follower of Him, a guided walk, hand in hand with the greatest strength I could ever imagined. The freedom to learn from the past, forgive and walk forward with love and promise is a feeling I wish for everyone. This has given Adam and I foundation for a marriage that neither of us even knew was possible. God works in mysterious ways; but with purpose.
Everything in life takes on new value and meaning when it becomes an instrument for you to live out your love and belief in faith and God. As explained in the teachings of John 4 and John 5 and reflected in my expericences; as we open our hearts to God's love, the love we have for our spouse overflows and fulfulls us in ways we otherwise could not imagine. This allows us to love our spouse as He loves them and us. Living with faith is a lifelong adventure filled with new experiences and constant learning, lessons are not always easy or understood, but life led by faith is life with purpose, love, strength and honor for God and the one closest in our lives.
This post includes some of the teachings I have learned recently during my time of reflection and study with faith. The Love Dare collection, Beth Moore, close friends and family and the Bible have all been sources of inspiration, learning, strength and love for Adam and I both as we walk together, each day one step further on the path of life together, honoring God and each other.
I appreciate your heart Adam, I once took this for granted, knowing it or not, now I truly love and appreciate your heart. You are an amazing man and I am very blessed to be your wife and partner in our journey.
I look forward each day to my time with faith, learning more and more about my new found freedom and mindset. My (our) life has been so blessed with so much support and Belief from so many people. Some will take time and I pray that they too can have closure, however I can only control my life, actions, and emotions. I am the leader of one and the follower of Him, a guided walk, hand in hand with the greatest strength I could ever imagined. The freedom to learn from the past, forgive and walk forward with love and promise is a feeling I wish for everyone. This has given Adam and I foundation for a marriage that neither of us even knew was possible. God works in mysterious ways; but with purpose.
Everything in life takes on new value and meaning when it becomes an instrument for you to live out your love and belief in faith and God. As explained in the teachings of John 4 and John 5 and reflected in my expericences; as we open our hearts to God's love, the love we have for our spouse overflows and fulfulls us in ways we otherwise could not imagine. This allows us to love our spouse as He loves them and us. Living with faith is a lifelong adventure filled with new experiences and constant learning, lessons are not always easy or understood, but life led by faith is life with purpose, love, strength and honor for God and the one closest in our lives.
This post includes some of the teachings I have learned recently during my time of reflection and study with faith. The Love Dare collection, Beth Moore, close friends and family and the Bible have all been sources of inspiration, learning, strength and love for Adam and I both as we walk together, each day one step further on the path of life together, honoring God and each other.
I appreciate your heart Adam, I once took this for granted, knowing it or not, now I truly love and appreciate your heart. You are an amazing man and I am very blessed to be your wife and partner in our journey.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Fun at the Park
Camden and I had a Mommy / Daughter play date at Shoup Park this afternoon, thats the park with the really really big slide -- so cool!
We did go down the really really big slide 2 times, no pics b/c I was hanging on for dear life :)
Camden loves the park! She is able to go down most of the small to medium slides by herself. Her favorite slides are the owns that spiral.
Fun Pics (PS Blogger is taking forever to upload, so pics are at a minimum for now).
Ready, Set, WHEEEE!
Oh I Just Love Surprises!
Surprise #1 Camden has her very own folding chair!! ... I hope Adam does too!
Over the past 4 days I have committed myself to being a green-thumbed yard working diva. I must say, I think I came pretty close ;).
As a psuedo surprise for Adam (I told I was going to weed and such)... I decided to weed, weedwhack, trim bushes, sweep, mulch, clean, dig, fill, spread and just about every other landscaping verb.
The Battle Plan
First, I attacked the front beds and the entryway. Secondly, I went after the two beds which flank our fire pit (thank you Adam and the Jasons!) in the backyard. It is important to know the beds had become part of the yard again. Hehe.
Lastly, I did all the manicure, sweep, busy work stuff.
enjoy the pics!!
Disclaimer- all work done on a Dave Ramsey approved budget.
Damn He's Good
I have wanted to start the Love Dare, both book and year of devotions, for several months. I finally, out of the blue, submerrsed myself in the Love Dare two days ago. The lessons are simplistic, but so true, so true. The Love Dare is my constant check, my constant reality check. Successful marriage is work, but a work of love and faith, a work that I long to do. I have learned so much in just the first few days. I have dropped my guards and opened my heart and mind to a fullfilled and honest realtionship with God and faith. To date, this is the most powerful, realizing, kick in the ass, and best thing that has ever happened to me. Adam I owe my relationship with God to you and your never ending belief.
The dare I went over yesterday was Love Is Patient -(get the title). Love is Life's Motivator is the over arching theme, but what kicked me was Love is patient. As many know I am not the most patient person, as a sign of growth, I can admit it and I am aware of it, I am also working to improve my patience, this will take time - bear with me :)
The most impactful lesson follows: try it, you will see.
Read Corinthians 13, then focus on versus 4-7:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres. "
Now replace your name or I everytime you read the word Love or It:
"I am patient, I am kind. I do not envy, I do not boast, I am not proud. I am not rude, I am not self seeking, I am not easly angered, I keep no record of wrongs. I do not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. I will always protect, trust, hope and perservere. "
The rest is self explanatory and Yes, I know, He's good.
Thank you Love Dare.
The dare I went over yesterday was Love Is Patient -(get the title). Love is Life's Motivator is the over arching theme, but what kicked me was Love is patient. As many know I am not the most patient person, as a sign of growth, I can admit it and I am aware of it, I am also working to improve my patience, this will take time - bear with me :)
The most impactful lesson follows: try it, you will see.
Read Corinthians 13, then focus on versus 4-7:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres. "
Now replace your name or I everytime you read the word Love or It:
"I am patient, I am kind. I do not envy, I do not boast, I am not proud. I am not rude, I am not self seeking, I am not easly angered, I keep no record of wrongs. I do not delight in evil but rejoice with the truth. I will always protect, trust, hope and perservere. "
The rest is self explanatory and Yes, I know, He's good.
Thank you Love Dare.
Two Steps Back, Three Steps Forward
This post is about awareness, self awareness. The last 48 hours have been trying but with my devotion to faith and the love I have for myself, my family, my God and my husband I know that this is "a bump." The last days are a testiment to the fact the Enemy is always waiting, lurking and hoping for any weakness to attack. The Enemy stikes fast and hard and the worst thing about is the victim is paralyzed by his venom, has lost grips with reality and believes only what the Enemy allows him to hear. It is a trap and it is hell, believe me I have been deep in the middle of it, now on both ends.
Moving forward: the does victim is not lost, there is one Hope, God and his faith and the people that love him (whether he thinks so or not) . The good becomes evil and the evil becomes good, this is paralyzing and causes the victim to act out of chracter and rationalize uncharacteristic thoughts and actions. It is not an excuse for ungodly actions, it is why ungodly actions happen. With this said, I am a stronger person and much more self aware because of my experiences as the victim and now as watching someone I love so much become trapped. With the love of God, The Enemy's latest victim was able to see God's truth, take his hand and begin to fight. Fight for his own mind, body and soul. Fight for his life.
We are winning the fight, I know we are. God works in mysterious ways and always with a purpose, God has given me a golden ticket so that I can finally show myself and others that I am committed and strong. God has also given me an infinite amount of artillery against the Enemy. This artillery is simple, I now know how the Enemy plays his game, I can see it, my vision is now clear, the blinders are off and I now have the tools to live a life of purpose, love, patience and Strength- God's strength. I have yet but a drop of HIS strength within me, but it is unlike any experience, I am a strong person and wife, I will honor my husband and love him
unconditionally, I am fighting for both of us while he is healing from the Enemy's strike. I devout my life to this fight, the fight for our marriage and our family. I will fight with the strength of 100 men and I will never surrender my fight against the Enemy's attack, no matter the playing field, the Enemy will not win, I am strong with the Lord and have the tools to finally see the holes of weakness/vulnerability and to repair those and make our wall strong at every point, making our marriage undesirable to the Enemy's plans.
I pledge my life to our marriage, our relationship and our families. I have new understanding of love, honor, respect, appreciation AND patience. At this point we must surround ourselves with postive influences that share in our fight, with those that pray for our love and our happiness as "one" I no longer see us a husband and a wife, we are one, as the Lord says, we become ONE. This is a celebration, knowing we are two people and only two people in this fight, I know we will become alive in our marriage. Our marriage has longed for the foundation that we have finally begun to build, every thing happens for a purpose - this is God's purpose- he has given us this test with the Enemy, a lesson to be learned, that everyday we must be aware, we must show love, we must show strength and we must show devotion to each other and the Lord. I believe God has given us this test or bump to show us that our marriage will reach a new level and be stronger than we ever could have imagined. We will be one, alive and aware and with God's strength and love as never before.
I am praying for us; with you. I am fighting with the strength of God and I will never give up.
Moving forward: the does victim is not lost, there is one Hope, God and his faith and the people that love him (whether he thinks so or not) . The good becomes evil and the evil becomes good, this is paralyzing and causes the victim to act out of chracter and rationalize uncharacteristic thoughts and actions. It is not an excuse for ungodly actions, it is why ungodly actions happen. With this said, I am a stronger person and much more self aware because of my experiences as the victim and now as watching someone I love so much become trapped. With the love of God, The Enemy's latest victim was able to see God's truth, take his hand and begin to fight. Fight for his own mind, body and soul. Fight for his life.
We are winning the fight, I know we are. God works in mysterious ways and always with a purpose, God has given me a golden ticket so that I can finally show myself and others that I am committed and strong. God has also given me an infinite amount of artillery against the Enemy. This artillery is simple, I now know how the Enemy plays his game, I can see it, my vision is now clear, the blinders are off and I now have the tools to live a life of purpose, love, patience and Strength- God's strength. I have yet but a drop of HIS strength within me, but it is unlike any experience, I am a strong person and wife, I will honor my husband and love him
unconditionally, I am fighting for both of us while he is healing from the Enemy's strike. I devout my life to this fight, the fight for our marriage and our family. I will fight with the strength of 100 men and I will never surrender my fight against the Enemy's attack, no matter the playing field, the Enemy will not win, I am strong with the Lord and have the tools to finally see the holes of weakness/vulnerability and to repair those and make our wall strong at every point, making our marriage undesirable to the Enemy's plans.
I pledge my life to our marriage, our relationship and our families. I have new understanding of love, honor, respect, appreciation AND patience. At this point we must surround ourselves with postive influences that share in our fight, with those that pray for our love and our happiness as "one" I no longer see us a husband and a wife, we are one, as the Lord says, we become ONE. This is a celebration, knowing we are two people and only two people in this fight, I know we will become alive in our marriage. Our marriage has longed for the foundation that we have finally begun to build, every thing happens for a purpose - this is God's purpose- he has given us this test with the Enemy, a lesson to be learned, that everyday we must be aware, we must show love, we must show strength and we must show devotion to each other and the Lord. I believe God has given us this test or bump to show us that our marriage will reach a new level and be stronger than we ever could have imagined. We will be one, alive and aware and with God's strength and love as never before.
I am praying for us; with you. I am fighting with the strength of God and I will never give up.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Cami "G"
Ms. Camden Horseman
Sporting her "style" at the WSU baseball game!!
Surprise gift for the best picture caption!! Get creative!
Sporting her "style" at the WSU baseball game!!
Surprise gift for the best picture caption!! Get creative!6 Principles of Reality Living
1. I am responsible for my own attitude
2. My attitude affects my actions
3. I can not change others, but I can influence others
4. My emotions do not control my actions
5. Admitting my imperfections does not mean I am a failure
6. Love is the most powerful weapon for good in the world
I took me a while to truly understand and appreciate these life-isms...
A little food for thought can go a long way :)
2. My attitude affects my actions
3. I can not change others, but I can influence others
4. My emotions do not control my actions
5. Admitting my imperfections does not mean I am a failure
6. Love is the most powerful weapon for good in the world
I took me a while to truly understand and appreciate these life-isms...
A little food for thought can go a long way :)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Beth Moore
Reasoning and Rationale: What Happened?
I may never fully know or be able to explain exactly what happened or how, but the following explanation, observations, and apology is based on Beth Moore’s book “Arm Yourself Against The Enemy’s Schemes: A taste of when godly people do ungodly things.” My family, counselor and Beth’s books have helped me bring reason and some answers to so many questions about my self and also have brought awareness to my actions and to ensure that my guard is never penetrable bye the “enemy” again.
To begin Beth states:
“Those who are wholehearted and sincere in devotion to Christ can be beguiled by the enemy, whose utmost fantasy is to corrupt and seduce.” (Adapted from 2 Cor. 11:3, AMP).
“Many people who by the grace of God have never been had by the Devil wrongly assume that all departures from godliness are nothing but defiance, rebellion, and proofs or in authenticity. They have no idea of the suffering involved when someone with a genuine heart for God slips from the path.” (I Pet. 5:8)
I am quoting not because I can’t explain, but because her words, adapted from God’s word says exactly what I was feeling, yet could not recognize or break through the grasp of the wicked trap I was caught in. I am not searching for everyone to understand or forgive; I know this will take time, time, and more time. However, I am searching for an opportunity, a chance to explain, understand and build what was so badly destroyed by the Enemy’s seductive and mind warping trap.
Through Beth Moore’s words I am coming to understand the Enemy’s plan to seduce the “saints, “ God reminds battered believers how loved they are and how much the Father longs for their restoration, and most of all how to begin to restore and fortify my life, relationships and most of all my walk with God, faith and belief.
In her book she outlines 5 basic steps to understanding: The first is Understanding the Enemy’s Plot.
“The Enemy’s objective in taking people captive is to get them to do his will. If we have received Christ as our Savior, Satan is forced to work from the outside rather than the inside, thus manipulating outside influences to affect the inside decision-makers of the heart and mind.” – Timothy 2:26
Secondly: Acknowledge Points of Vulnerability
This chapter explains four weaknesses that left me open to attack
1. Ignorance – the #1 element that sets us up for deception
2. Spiritual passion that exceeds biblical knowledge – believing but now knowing WHY
3. A lack of discernment – “an intimate knowledge of God’s word is the best defense we have against a moment when the temptation to do wrong feels like the nudge to do right.”
4. A lack of self-discernment – “The enemy’s seduction is purposeful, well planned, and well timed; nothing about it is accidental or coincidental.” They confronted me in the day of my disaster – Ps. 18:18
When we know where our personal weak places are, we become better equipped to survive the strike. God desires to cover our weaknesses with his strength. Our job is to acknowledge and ask for the help we need.
Thirdly: Hear the Warnings of the Seduced
10 claims shared by those who were enticed to do ungodly things after living godly
1. Individuals were caught off guard by a sudden onslaught of temptation or attack – caught / trapped in sin – Galatians 6:1
2. Many felt as if they had just entered a new season of growth in their relationship with God when the unimaginable happened
3. Mental bombardment
4. In the case of relational seductions, the enemy got to them through someone close by
5. Early warning signs were rampant; however, they rationalized them away
6. Totally uncharacteristic and sudden behavior patterns
7. Practices of isolation
8. Deception and secrecy involved
9. Utterly hated what they were doing – felt trapped or too far gone to know how or who to ask for help
10. The seduction of the enemy only lasted a short time
Lastly: Know that God is in Control and Learn the Steps to Reconciliation
We must submit to an intense period of detoxification, deprogramming and reprogramming.
Get humble and ask for forgiveness – Only when we once again admit our failures and humbly ask Him to forgive us do we reaffirm our commitment to letting Him be Lord over our lives – rationalize nothing
Feel sorrow over sin – when we humbly ask for forgiveness and allow the gravity of what we have done to soften our battered hearts, we take a giant step closer to the Father’s protective, healing side.
Trust God, Not the Feelings
Rest in God’s Mercy – God forgives and forgets – Jer.31:34, Heb 8:12
The above is not meant to be a lecture or “look, I am aware and everyone should love me” boast, this is the beginning of my journey to reconciliation, forgiveness, knowledge and strength in faith, my family, and friends - new and old relationships. This walk with God must start with knowledge and a foundation of trust, love and devotion. I am starting here with an open mind, aware and ready for a stronger marriage, family, and relationships - all guided and protected by faith.
Thank you Adam, I love you.
I may never fully know or be able to explain exactly what happened or how, but the following explanation, observations, and apology is based on Beth Moore’s book “Arm Yourself Against The Enemy’s Schemes: A taste of when godly people do ungodly things.” My family, counselor and Beth’s books have helped me bring reason and some answers to so many questions about my self and also have brought awareness to my actions and to ensure that my guard is never penetrable bye the “enemy” again.
To begin Beth states:
“Those who are wholehearted and sincere in devotion to Christ can be beguiled by the enemy, whose utmost fantasy is to corrupt and seduce.” (Adapted from 2 Cor. 11:3, AMP).
“Many people who by the grace of God have never been had by the Devil wrongly assume that all departures from godliness are nothing but defiance, rebellion, and proofs or in authenticity. They have no idea of the suffering involved when someone with a genuine heart for God slips from the path.” (I Pet. 5:8)
I am quoting not because I can’t explain, but because her words, adapted from God’s word says exactly what I was feeling, yet could not recognize or break through the grasp of the wicked trap I was caught in. I am not searching for everyone to understand or forgive; I know this will take time, time, and more time. However, I am searching for an opportunity, a chance to explain, understand and build what was so badly destroyed by the Enemy’s seductive and mind warping trap.
Through Beth Moore’s words I am coming to understand the Enemy’s plan to seduce the “saints, “ God reminds battered believers how loved they are and how much the Father longs for their restoration, and most of all how to begin to restore and fortify my life, relationships and most of all my walk with God, faith and belief.
In her book she outlines 5 basic steps to understanding: The first is Understanding the Enemy’s Plot.
“The Enemy’s objective in taking people captive is to get them to do his will. If we have received Christ as our Savior, Satan is forced to work from the outside rather than the inside, thus manipulating outside influences to affect the inside decision-makers of the heart and mind.” – Timothy 2:26
Secondly: Acknowledge Points of Vulnerability
This chapter explains four weaknesses that left me open to attack
1. Ignorance – the #1 element that sets us up for deception
2. Spiritual passion that exceeds biblical knowledge – believing but now knowing WHY
3. A lack of discernment – “an intimate knowledge of God’s word is the best defense we have against a moment when the temptation to do wrong feels like the nudge to do right.”
4. A lack of self-discernment – “The enemy’s seduction is purposeful, well planned, and well timed; nothing about it is accidental or coincidental.” They confronted me in the day of my disaster – Ps. 18:18
When we know where our personal weak places are, we become better equipped to survive the strike. God desires to cover our weaknesses with his strength. Our job is to acknowledge and ask for the help we need.
Thirdly: Hear the Warnings of the Seduced
10 claims shared by those who were enticed to do ungodly things after living godly
1. Individuals were caught off guard by a sudden onslaught of temptation or attack – caught / trapped in sin – Galatians 6:1
2. Many felt as if they had just entered a new season of growth in their relationship with God when the unimaginable happened
3. Mental bombardment
4. In the case of relational seductions, the enemy got to them through someone close by
5. Early warning signs were rampant; however, they rationalized them away
6. Totally uncharacteristic and sudden behavior patterns
7. Practices of isolation
8. Deception and secrecy involved
9. Utterly hated what they were doing – felt trapped or too far gone to know how or who to ask for help
10. The seduction of the enemy only lasted a short time
Lastly: Know that God is in Control and Learn the Steps to Reconciliation
We must submit to an intense period of detoxification, deprogramming and reprogramming.
Get humble and ask for forgiveness – Only when we once again admit our failures and humbly ask Him to forgive us do we reaffirm our commitment to letting Him be Lord over our lives – rationalize nothing
Feel sorrow over sin – when we humbly ask for forgiveness and allow the gravity of what we have done to soften our battered hearts, we take a giant step closer to the Father’s protective, healing side.
Trust God, Not the Feelings
Rest in God’s Mercy – God forgives and forgets – Jer.31:34, Heb 8:12
The above is not meant to be a lecture or “look, I am aware and everyone should love me” boast, this is the beginning of my journey to reconciliation, forgiveness, knowledge and strength in faith, my family, and friends - new and old relationships. This walk with God must start with knowledge and a foundation of trust, love and devotion. I am starting here with an open mind, aware and ready for a stronger marriage, family, and relationships - all guided and protected by faith.
Thank you Adam, I love you.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
A New Day
With an open mind, an open heart and a map called faith, I walk beside you, loving you and honoring you.
Thank you Adam.
Thank you Adam.
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